“Never mind I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don’t forget me I beg. I remember you said “sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.”
Nothing compares, no worries, or cares. Regrets and mistakes, they’re memories made. Who would have known.. How.. Bittersweet this would taste.”
Sometimes when I feel like I’m stuck in a situation that I don’t know how to move forward with, or I don’t know how to handle. I miss my dad.
Growing up, any time my mom or I had any kind of problems my dad was always the first one there to step up and help us through it. We never even had to say anything. He always protected us from getting hurt. I never felt anyone love me (aside from my mom) that loved me as much as my daddy.
I’ve never seen anyone work so hard to show their love for a person before. He never once blamed “life” for getting in the way of keeping the people he loved happy. Yeah, we had our weekly routine of work and school life, etc. But my dad was so fun and random that every day was a different day for us.
It has been nearly 8 years and 3 months since my dad passed away. Yet sometimes I feel like I am still that 15 year old little girl reliving that surreal situation.
Realizing that daddy isn’t coming home from work tonight. Daddy can’t take us out for dinner this weekend. Daddy won’t plan anymore spontaneous adventures this summer. And the one thing that I can never let go.. Daddy can’t walk me down the aisle someday when I get married.
I can’t call daddy to come beat up a boy for breaking his little girl’s heart. No more Christmas presents under the tree “from Mommy & Daddy.” No more extravagant birthday celebrations made yearly by daddy. Didn’t even bother having a debut when I turned 18 because it wouldn’t have been the same without him. And just like in weddings, there’s that “father-daughter dance.”
God took you from me too early daddy, and I miss you more and more everyday. Especially when I realize that all mom has is me now. And I’m not even there to see her, and check on her as often as I’d like to. I’m so far away I cannot even come visit your grave whenever I miss you and that kills me so much inside..
I know life would be so much different if you were still around. I probably would have already finished college four years ago.. And even though I’ve gotten a late start, I made a promise to you, and I am finally able to pursue and accomplish that goal. I finally overcame my fear and just went head on into applying and getting accepted. Nothing and no one will get in my way of keeping that promise to you.
I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. And I know that in the short time I had with you, I took that all for granted.
Sometimes I still beat myself up for that. I wish I never took you for granted daddy. I’m sorry and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me.
At 23 years old now, I can only hope I became half the daughter you always wanted. Because you were the best daddy any little girl could ever ask for.
I miss and love you so, so much. One day we can all be together again.
I love you daddy. Rest in paradise.
Your daughter,
Grethel Gonzales
Travis Air Show 2011
These things don’t happen very often, they come around every few years. So when it came to base for the second time since me being stationed here, I figured it was a good photo op day!
And for those of you who have never seen or been around military cargo planes, or military planes at all for that matter.. They make civilian planes (planes at the airport) look like baby airplanes lol.
“A daughter may outgrow your lap, but she will never outgrow your heart.”
The day these were taken, was such a spontaneous planned day. But it was probably one of the most relaxing & fun days I’ve had in awhile. One of my best girl friend’s Alicia & I decided that we were “beach deprived” and it was time to let loose. So we ventured into Santa Cruz, CA :) Her daughter Ashlyn absolutely LOVED it there. She was so giddy the moment she stepped foot in the sand. It was awesome just watching her have so much fun & finding happiness in the smallest of things.
I love the beach. I wish I could stay there forever.
Two weeks ago I did a shoot for a co-worker’s grand-daughter’s prom :) They came out beautifully and reminded me of my proms. Made me miss high school lol <3
“Beauty queen of only eighteen..”
For Mother’s day this year, my class of 12-24 month old pre-toddlers took wooden frames & painted them all by themselves :] It was a very messy, but fun activity. They all love to do art projects. It’s one of the only things that will keep them sitting still at the table without fidgeting lol. To add their special Mother’s day gifts, I took a couple of shots of them to put in the frames they had made. These are just a preview of some of the ones I’ve edited thus far. Hope you enjoy!
“Children are the living messages we send to a time we will not see.”
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“So keep the blood in your head, and keep your feet on the ground. Today’s the day it gets tired. Today’s the day we drop out. Gave up my body and bed, All for an empty hotel. Wasting words on lower cases & capitals.”
Just a few moments ago I was listening to a song & for some reason it reminded me of one of my older pics I had in my portfolio. It’s a picture of hubby’s pinkie finger that got sliced when he tried to catch a fluorescent light bulb at work from falling. I remember the ER doctor had said that if the cut had gone any deeper, it would have cut into the bone and they would have had to remove the tip of his pinkie finger! Thank God right? Oh, and no worries for those of you who fear blood, the majority of blood in this pic is Photoshopped so you have nothing to worry about lol. I don’t know why, but I always find interest and art in the weirdest, goriest, and darkest of things sometimes haha. You know any other wife you’d come home to wouldn’t be like “can I take a picture of your stitches?!” LOL.
If it disturbs you, it’s art.
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Hey loves! So lately I’ve been thinking and actually kind of realizing that it has been FOREVER since I’ve actually photographed anything in a long, long time. This is why I’ve decided to make a photo blog of my photography portfolio.
Here I will post new & upcoming photographs that I have taken myself, and share them with you all! I apologize for the amount of time it has been since I’ve showcased any of my artwork. But hopefully by making this blog I can get back on track and update you guys with some new and interesting pictures more often than I have been. I hope you enjoy! Stay tuned for more awesome art in the works! <3
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